neurological dryer lint

well at last there's an ilovebees axon (a pay phone that the in-game people call) here in cincinnati. up in milford to be specific. i'm going up there at 1:45 with some other people to answer the phone call.

"when it rains" enjoyably describes my day yesterday both metaphorically and literally. ipod got stolen, strike one. rained on me all day walking to class, and now i can't breathe at all. strike two. then i had the absolutely most frustrating afternoon getting ready for club...

and club just feels the same way it did last year. it's hard. we're trying to figure out strategy on exactly how to have club and make it something people enjoy, people want to go to and bring people to, and we're willing to do whatever it takes. but sometimes i wonder why we even bother trying to make it happen. right now it's not a crucial, pivotal part of our ministry at oak hills. it seems (to our human eyes) we accomplish the same things when club is happening as when it isn't. the same people from campaigners are at club. usually less, actually. we still spend time with the same people, though, for the same amount of time. except for an hour we aren't putting on a show. is there something better we could be doing? of course. but we have no idea what. campaigners always goes well and draws interested people. but we can't just do that every week, we want something more.

we could go back to doing movie nights/hangout every week and do club once a month... but even then it was exactly the same, like we were doing it just because we're doing younglife stuff and duh, we have to do club, it's part of the program. it sucks because sometimes the community and the people don't fit into the program, and what then? our answer has always been, do whatever it takes. so do we rework club, do it less, abandon it altogether, keep trying and hope things get better? this really isn't something i want feedback on, i'm just talking to myself. it's the perfect forum for such interaction.

renee got me an awesome custom-designed timbuk2 bag for my birthday. it's HIGHLY sweet. i packed it up last night because i couldn't fall asleep, and man, this bag couldn't be designed any better. blew away my expectations.

futures is out today. i never listened past the fifth track so i'm jazzed to get it and hear the rest of what seems to be a brilliant album.