neurological dryer lint

check this article out - it's about the term 'earworm', coined by my marketing professor Dr. James Kellaris (awesome bowtie, man). he did a bunch of research on songs getting stuck in your head. it's cool stuff and he talked about it a lot in my intro to marketing class. i can't stand marketing at all, but i enjoyed the class cuz he's HILARIOUS.

so i hooked my boy ken from work up w/some cat5 action at his house yesterday. ken bought this house a couple years ago... from the outside it appears pretty ghetto, sorta old looking, in need of some paint or new siding, etc... but then you go inside, and GOOD LORD it's AWESOME. ken tore out the entire inside of the house and literally redid everything - staircases and rooms moved, entrances and floor levels changed... and it looks amazing, MTV Cribs-level stuff. one of the coolest things i've ever seen.

made me realize, as a follower of Christ, that's a good description of me (and followers of Christ in general). i'm a firm believer in the fact that you decide to follow Jesus and surrender your life to Him and the first thing He does is major surgery - removes the inside, our old, selfish, messed up, broken heart, and replaces it with a new heart, one that is good and healthy and sensitive to the presence of God. i don't know if this is instantaneous, or a process of change, but i do know that Christ claims that He will heal the brokenhearted, and that is a comfort to me. the conflict between my outer shell and its habits and my new heart is, in its own way, catastrophic. deep down i want to be close to Jesus, know Him like my closest friend, "closer than my skin", as david crowder puts it. the feeling is so strong it's almost tangible, like i can pull it out of my pocket. and sometimes my search feels like i'm hitting a wall, like my head has insurmountable blockades to allowing myself to be exposed to Jesus and i won't ever get over them. almost like a kid lost in a grocery store running around trying to find his dad, terrified, alone, and powerless to fix the situation. and sometimes i feel an almost emotional high because i'm so sure of Christ's overwhelming love and concern and care and joy for me.

bah. stupid emotional rollercoaster brain. why can't i just be stable? :) hey, that's a great band name, stupid emotional rollercoaster brain. dot com. coolness.