neurological dryer lint

ooh, blogger has a cool new interface. it's much less efficient, much more cartoony and pretty. i dig.

fun weekend. did my first stint as 'greeter' at the gathering, and it was a lot of fun. there are some days i wish i did more at that place, because there's some really really cool opportunities to build relationships and grow there. i know that it'd pull a lot of time away from leading, tho. since i've been going to clovernook (it's been about five years, three as a 'member'), i've always leaned away from what i guess is generally called as 'serving in the church' (i.e. working as a part of their groups and everything). i have X amount of time, and i'm bad enough at correctly allocating it to do what i need to with young life. i've never had a problem with that fact, either. i consider myself pretty lucky that i got called to be a young life leader in the first place, and i don't doubt that's where i'm supposed to be. it's like i already drive a sweet car, and i really like it, it's fun to drive, doesn't take much maintenance, and i feel like i'm good at driving it. but i drive by dealerships (my dad owns a DEALERSHIP), sit on the highway, and check out other cars... look at what my friends are driving... and i wonder what it'd be like to drive something else for a change.

granted, i'm not locked into leading. God doesn't value me just because i work with this particular ministry. it just seems like i do that a lot, i'm never contented simply with what i have. i always wonder about switching to Linux on the desktop, selling my Xbox to buy a PS2, picking up an XM radio for the car, etc... i rarely have the stones to make any big leaps, though. the whole point is i know things could be different in regards to the ministry i work with. i want to end up on young life staff, i think, and i know that if i started doing more stuff with clovernook and not leading, i wouldn't be as happy. i'm pretty much wired to be with young life. but with clovernook starting a new branch out in western hills, it used to seem like it'd be perfect for me. the more i thought about it, though, i saw myself just looking for a change, not really for any good reason but for the sake of changing.

sorry there's so much rambling above. half the time i don't know why i'm writing what i'm writing. i don't know why i have these goggles. :)