neurological dryer lint

outside the detroit airport, it looks like the world stops completely. someone must have erased it all, because past the windows, it's all white. there are planes outside, people scurrying, playing, chatting, trying to work, like humans tend to do. but the cloud cover is simply white, endless. no trees, nothing. the world existed on approach. it was fascinating, as i have no memory of flight, except staring into the safe shelter of my gameboy screen when i was young. shielding my brain from the mechanical roar around me - a roar that could have possessed a multitude of wrong and death. okay, so i do remember some stuff, yeah.

anyway, the flight in, well, quickness. in the air for 45 minutes that felt like fifteen. the two amazing things: sitting on a sea of clouds, completely empty. EMPTY. one hundred percent different from the surface. incredibly peaceful. you wonder why people attribute heaven to the clouds, and it's not really such a mystery anymore. must be what the earth was like before man.

amazing thing two: the people who experienced the fantastic peace with their heads buried in a new york times. people who have seen this wonder a multitude of times, enough to novacaine them to the absolute WONDER out the window.

what have i stopped wondering about? where has my sense of the majestic vanished to? how many ravishing, powerful experiences do i stare at daily, numb and ignorant, familiarity bleeding passion's heart?

can i afford to walk through life a doe-eyed greeting card of uselessness? can there be people in this world in whose task it lies simply to observe and wonder? poets? or maybe those more mundane of us - maybe that's how we're supposed to survive. stop trying to categorize and familiarize and sort the wonder of this world, justin, stop trying to master it. let it master you. how many times have you been sailing? when was the last time you just shut down the rationalization engine and watched the mainsail expand and contract, the beating heart of the wind?

i promise it won't be ALL like this. i need a place to dump what i see, really. i think everyone else can just skip the next week of posts. go hit up a useful website and make some use of your time. :)