neurological dryer lint

dude. free wireless access in panera rules. screw biscuit world, i didn't even have to pay for it here.

it reminded me.. looks like i will be allowed to tag along with renee when she goes to san fransisco this august to visit angie oulette. besides florida (which was a blast, but essentially a long road trip and a decent amount of work) i haven't been on a non-younglife-sponsored vacation in a long, long time. granted this will be four or five days max, but the oulettes are letting both of us stay at their place, so all i'll be paying for is airfare and rental car and doing stuff... flying during the week, too, will make things a bit cheaper. plus i'll get to go to california... furthest west i've ever been is minnesota in 1988 with my mom on a business trip. all i remember from that trip is flying over st.paul / minneapolis at night and how beautiful it was, and fixing a broken NES in the day care i was staying at (at 9 years old, fear it).

i was trying to explain to renee how i feel expressive in environments like that. i daydream about sitting in small coffee shops (or sandwich places, or biscuit eateries) with my laptop, writing things, thinking about things. SF would be a sweet place to do it. it'd be cool to go explore a new place with her. it'd be cool to explore a new place solo, too, so when we go i'll get to do both. but just visiting somewhere new - and my quotient for that is quite low, obviously, as it seems to be something i do every few years - sounds really nice right now. i crave a short-term adventure. remember all that crap about feeling like i want to hang out with God? how about walking through a city i've never seen with him?

although, why do i feel like i need to be out of my native land here to do that? why can't i connect with him on that level here? what is it about going somewhere unexplored that sounds so appealing, and what is it about being here, the lack of newness, that makes me feel so locked down, so drained, so uninspired? my brain is weird.