neurological dryer lint

it feels pretty disgustingly early. the last few days i didn't get nearly enough sleep and i did a lot of stuff during the day, and now i'm feeling it. the idea of going back to bed after i get home from work is a gentle current, drifting me through my work day.

i didnt get a chance to post much from the last few days of the trip. not that it was super eventful anyway, it was mostly sightseeing and i can usually handle that for a few days before i just want to stop being a tourist, because tourists are annoying. and in a city like sf there's a whole lot of touristy stuff to do. saturday i got back and took renee out to dinner... i had originally planned to go into the city, but it's potentially an hour drive from where we were staying into the city, and i had driven all day and more traffic wasn't something i was thrilled about. so we drove around the local cloned shopping center (you know, best buy, home depot, borders, movie theater, friday's, etc) and then it hit me how stupid it is to go somewhere like that when there's a million local places that i've never been to before around. so we found a little italian place. pretty tasty.

then sunday. we went up to napa and visited some wineries. the best was the one owned by francis ford coppola, they had a little museum w/lots of godfather stuff. sunday night we went and saw the village. rocked out, imho, a little goofy but cool overall. night is doing a lot more of the disjointed, brief scenes that don't really connect. and william hurt owns you.

monday we got up silly early and took the subway into town and went to alcatraz... that's how a tourist attraction should be. i took a million pictures. and then we went over to angel island. beautiful views of the city from there. we spent a few more hours walking around downtown, and then took the train back home.

flight back was easy enough. got lots of pictures to put up, most of which are on renee's camera. i had a lot of fun, it was very memorable. i kind of wish i could have spent more time writing and observing. i observed myself quite a bit, and it was frustrating. i have a better picture of myself now than before, and i don't like what i see. maybe it's just that i'm tired or in a bad mood, but i'm not very happy with myself or the way i interact with people. i'm feeling my flaws very plainly today. like my whole self is an exposed nerve. it's not a pleasant experience, but i would imagine it's a fairly common one. i kind of just want to go hide from people and not put them through the experience of dealing with me. like the batmobile's shield in the original batman. i should get one of those for my car anyway.

listening to: jay-z - lucifer