neurological dryer lint

renee graduated yesterday. the party afterwards at her parents' house had the potential to be, i guess tense is the best way to describe it. my family, her family plus her aunt and uncle and cousins, plus meagan. too many people who don't know each other. but it was okay. and i think she likes her zire. she's slowly acclimating to the gadgets i'm getting her hooked on. it's wonderful.

so the big day, i'm heading up to saranac for a week. we're at 12 guys and 8 girls confirmed, with a possibility for one more guy and one more girl. i'm hoping big dqniel (not a typo) grace comes along. that'd be killer.

so yeah, looks like fun. weather's gonna supposedly be a little rainy in the beginning of the week, but great temperatures. 18 hour bus ride, but two buses, so lots of room.

i remember my first few years of camp and how stressed out i was the week before the trip. it's all i could think about. there's a lot of pressure on any leader before a camp trip, to remember to bring everything and more, getting forms and money and everything together, actually being a leader... it's really exhausting, which is why i sleep for at least fourteen hours straight when i get back home every year. blend the feelings of the night before christmas with the five minutes before a crucial job interview, and your final exam in your most important class. it kinda feels like that.

it's easier now, there's still pressure, but i've led six camp trips and seen them all work out fine. the nerve-wracking anticipation has given way to a rational, pack-what-you-need-and-show-up-at-the-bus tranquility. i know what not to forget to bring. i know to organize forms and money in advance (the next eight hours may be the most organized of my whole year). and i know the most important thing about the whole week is just hanging out with people.

anyway i'll be back the 20th at 6am and conscious again around 6pm.

listening to: project 86 - safe haven