see myself molded in clay
argh.
listen to me rail on and on about how angry the political movement makes me. steve's comments always make me chuckle - watching the west wing has convinced a subconscious layer of my brain that high political office is obtainable - or should be - to anyone with solid ideas and a commitment to serve. but i know i couldn't get into it because i'm weak and politics would change me, not the other way around. plus i'm not a harvard grad or a lawyer or whatever, just a dude who knows how to build a linux box.
anyway.
i was convicted reading an email from some lifespring missionaries: what good does it do me to sit and complain about the endless flinging of crap between politicians? if i'm really worried about the moral and intellectual makeup of our government on november 8, maybe i should spend less time at the keyboard and more time in prayer.
one of the verses that the dudes in new leader training have to memorize is phillipians 4:6-7. it's one that stuck with me when some of the others in the "wheel" series didn't:
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.that's not just a nice philosophical idea or a greeting-card-esque saying to make us feel better. when i plead with God about things that freak me out or make me angry or whatever, the effect is always peace. not necessarily something happening the way that i want it to, but more that the God that i love, the one who has blessed my life beyond imagination, has things under control.
maybe it's an incredibly potent psychological reaction that has been conditioned to occur. past experience would dictate, at least to me, that this is more than a glorified "serenity now". seems that under circumstances of the most extreme duress, my heart stops racing, my muscles get less tense, and i breathe easier. i realize how little control i actually have - and that between God and i, the one with the perfect track record is aware of the situation, and has been for quite a while.
so instead of letting this stuff get me worked up, i will try to pursue God's heart, rely on his provision.
I will be your Leo if you will step up. This is not a haha moment, or another haha comment. I have nothing now but some debt and a desire to see something good happen with my life.
Let's run this thing to the...
Well, I'll stand in there anyway.
Re: Yesterday's bog, check out Scott Adams blog post today.
http://dilbertblog.typepad.com/
or, if you just think of government as real life SNL, things get much better. or, if you just think of great SNL skits to do based on all the crap, government is much easier to swollow.
just don't take it seriously. i don't. its not worth it.
there are many truths in life that i've learned only recently. one, atheletes can get away with ANYTHING. seriously... anything. and two, the person you're voting for won't change anything for the better and it doesn't make a difference.
call me what you will, but you know i'm right. its sad really.